ta shi wo ai te ren

just when i thought everything is now alright
you came like a thief in the middle of the night
i was minding my own life enjoying my time
but you got my attention, you're locked in my sight

ever sine i have come to know the real you
my world rocked my mind is now in a limbo
knowing you is like drinking salt water
the more i drink, the more i become thirsty

magically, you make me happy deep inside
magically, this feeling just won't subside
magically, it's only you who can bring this joy
magically, i am thankful and grateful beyond words

as the days go by this feeling inside grows
the past pain became invisible in its shadows
i don't want it to go away, in it i am at ease
oh! and who said that ignorance is a bliss?

i can see love in your eyes, feel it in your touch
each time i come to hold you and see your smile
i can feel the warmth of being cared for in your arms
here is my refuge, here is my home, here i will stay

charmed by your smile, lost in your eyes
where have you been, been searching all my life
but now that i got you here beside me
expect me to be the man you want me to be

as long as you want to stay, you may
and i will do everything to keep you from harm's way
mark these words because this much i can promise
you and you alone sit at the top of my priority list

free hugs, anyone?

lately, i have been busy at my work. we all have to work, don't we? but in the environment i am in right now, they mean business. everything is done the proper way. everything and everyone has their role to play and they play it with passion. with burning desire to deliver the best product there is. better than the client is expecting actually.

so you might ask me if i still have a life. sure i don't have a girlfriend and only a few select friends. add to that my work that requires most of my waking hours. but yes i still have a life. well maybe not as healthy as most of you guys but hey, i'm happy. i decided to be happy. whatever reason i have or i have not, i decided to smile upon my life. life is beautiful. life is happy. i see no reason why i should not be happy.

or so i thought. before, i always look forward to christmas like a child who's expecting that his wish will be granted by santa. no i think santa from the north pole exists but i do believe that santa is within us. we can be somebody's santa. we can grant the wish of anybody we think deserves to have his wish granted. yes, i'm like that every single year. but this year, due to concentration to my job, i failed to notice that christmas is just 14 days away. oh yes i failed to enjoy the waiting for christmas for i am sure that the following days will still be so busy for my to count the days, hours and minutes to christmas. so do i still have life? i'm not so sure now.

last weekend, i was with a friend and we are just talking somewhere in ortigas when two strangers, chinese looking fellows approached us, smiling. i can't help but smile back. then they hold out a piece of paper with writings just big enough for us to read from the distance we had. it reads "free hugs". i smiled even bigger. then we hugged. i heard about the hug therapy and its effect to people but i never really appreciated that until that day. i felt happy from deep inside me. i watched them walk away under the scorching heat of the sun. i thought they were happy. happy to spread happiness to strangers they walk accross with. suddenly i felt christmas. most of us thinks that christmas is just for children. if that is true then i am, in every sense of the word, a child. a child who is just so happy that christmas is a season to be jolly. not really to be kind to everybody but just to be happy. but this time, happiness for me to make other people happy.

i'm giving away free hugs, anyone?

becoming a tiger

i am now working in accenture and one of their slogan is "go on. be a tiger." it simply means that you can surpass yours and others expectations of you. becoming a tiger means that what ever you do, you must always give that extra effort so that being excellent is just a routine. getting appreciation and being applauded is just another day in the office. they even have a banner of a rabbit wearing yellow and black stripes. haha. i really like that one.

oh and yes i am part of accenture now which means that i have that tiger attitude within me and they saw that. i always know and believed that i am somewhat a tiger. but have i always exercised being a tiger? let me see.

year 2002 was the year i earned my degree in mathematics. not so easy degree, yes. i will have to agree with that. but i was a tiger. i approached each challenges that came my way with so much energy and optimism. taking up at least two higher math courses per semester is really draining. physically and mentally. i got through them. not unscratched but the thing is, i got through. with bonuses actually. my mentors and professors recognized my talent and i was sent to compete in UP Math Club Annual Search for Math Wizard three times. i was noticed when i beat a sophomore in math quiz bee held in PUP when i was a freshman. i showed them that i was a tiger.

after graduation, i applied for a position in accenture. i took the exam and passed it. it was far the most difficult exam i took as far as i can remember. i never really thought that i would pass that exam. i was so drained after that exam. that evening i was told that i passed the exam and that i should expect their call the following day. i had a phone interview the day after that. again, i passed. i was told to come to their HR office after that and man, i was so overwhelmed. i arrived at exactly the time i was told to come but i should have come earlier as they observed my attitude towards waiting. one thing that i really hate is to wait. i'm very particular with time. then came the most annoying interview i ever had in my entire life. i got annoyed. i lost the job opportunity. i wasn't a tiger. i was just a cub who cowed away in annoyance.

years passed. i had gone to another company where i let myself grow, technically and professionally. and then an unexpected call came. it is from accenture inviting me for a technical interview which i gladly attended to. i know better this time. i passed all their interview. i had three interviews in three hours that day. i showed them that the cub i was when i first applied for a position in their company is now a tiger.

thrilling F1 finish

the 17th and last race of the 2007 season of formula 1 will take place this sunday at interlagos in brazil and boy! what a thrill we are having. three drivers are slugging it out for the crown. man oh man! can it get better than this? i don't think so. rookie lewis "golden boy" hamilton (i don't like him for some reason) leads the standing with 107 points, double world champion fernando alonso in second with 103 points and kimi "the iceman" raikonnen is in third with one hundred points.

all of them has a chance to win the championship. so ok, what needs to happen for each driver to win the championship? in a formula 1 grand prix, drivers who finished in top will score 10, 8, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2 and 1 respectively. so for hamilton to win, he just need to finish at least second in the last race. for alonso to win, he must finish ahead of kimi and get at least four more points than hamilton. if, say, alonso won the brazilian GP and hamilton finished third, they will both have 113 points but as of the moment, the two drivers both have 4 wins. so if alonso wins his fifth this sunday, the crown will be given to him and he will be the champ for three consecutive years. among the three, kimi' s chances is the least and for him to win, he has to win the race, alonso must not finish higher than third and hamilton not higher than 6th. kimi has one advantage though. his team mate felipe massa is no longer in the hunt for the championship so he can get some help from this guy but still, i think an almighty hand will have to interfere in the race for this happen.

whatever is at stake, expect these three drivers to give their all especially when they all have a fresh engine for this race. i wish them all the best.

i read about my favorite driver, kimi, in wikipedia and found out that he is currently the highest paid F1 driver earning a basic, take note, basic salary of US$51M annually. that's Php 2.3B and all you have to do is drive around 17 races a year, travel around the globe and have your photos taken. of course there's a lot of sacrifices and dangers with this kind of job but man, that's Php 2.3B. i'm not sure if lucio tan is earning the same but one thing i am sure of is that kimi is free from problems like loans, business strategies etc etc. add to that figure the sponsorships, TV rights and other stuffs. if i were him, i'd race for 5 years and then retire my way, laughing, rolling, through the bank.

i really can't get over it man.

i'm starting to love sundays at home

i used to hate sundays. it's so boring and damn, i've got nowhere to go. the shows on TV are not of my taste and it doesn't seem to meet my wavelength. radio stations play songs way beyond what my parents' age and i can't bear listening to them for long.

but lately, sports channels offer great entertainment. hell yeah! it's the MLB postseason (ALCS and NCLS) and the action is so intense that a game lasts for more than three hours (11 innings). it can't get any better than that. though my head aches after a game because of prolonged sitting in front of TV. honestly, i'm not a TV fan. i'd rather go out and have a chat with my friends rather than waste my whole day watching TV. but the sportsman in me really gets excited when big games are on.

then julio diaz and juan diaz slugged it out today too. holyfield challenged ibraginov for the heavyweight title. i got bored with holyfield and watched ranma 1/2 instead. hahaha. but the diazes showed pacquiao should think a lot of times first before challenging either of them. they are both strong and they can give a lot of punishment to their opponent as well as take punishments too. i just love it.

and later tonight, two of stephen chow's well loved movies will be shown of rival TV networks. heck, i don't care what network will air those movies as long as i get to see them once again. but really, my head aches like hell that is why i took a walk and here i am in an internet cafe and sitting once again. hahaha. how ironic. i left the house because i don't like sitting a lot but here i am sitting on my ass once again.

i don't think i will be able to see stephen chow's movies tonight. i have important things to tell my best friend and it's gonna take a while. i am actually thinking if i'm going to post an open letter to him here. that remains to be seen. it depends on how bored i will get here.

argh! sundays!

sportsfest sunday

formula 1: raiknonnen stomped his authority in china to take the checkered flag on this race. i really liked the race because he once again displayed his true ability behind the steering wheel. he made a very good move on hamilton as he took the lead for the race from the championship leader. although hamilton is still very likely to win the title, my loyalty remains with kimi. well, i'm a loyal person, at least i think i am. i really hope that kimi wins the title even if i'm not expecting it anymore. actually, i didn't like him moving to ferrari because my loyalty is with mclaren mercedes team. so for now, i am cheering for both kimi and the mclaren team.

boxing: manny pacquiao proved to the world that his win over barrera four years ago wasn't a fluke. he beat barrera again though not by a knock-out, it is still convincing. barrera used the ring to evade manny's powerful punches but he still suffered an ugly cut on his face. manny is simply too powerful for him to survive. no matter what barrera says, everybody knows how badly he was beaten. after the fight, barrera retired. he retired in an ugly manner. i really do not like it. i'm going to elaborate it here.

the many things running in my idle mind

my typical working day:

5:45am - wake up time (prepare for work)
6:30am - take off from house to workplace
8:00am - arrive at office (get a cup of coffee)
8:00am - 12:00nn - magbasa, maglaro at magbasa uli
12:00nn - 1:30pm - lunch break
1:30pm - 5:30pm - magbasa, makinig sa lecture, at magbasa uli
5:30pm - take off from workplace to house (sobrang sakit na ng mata ko)
7:30pm - arrive at house (higa)
9:00pm - bangon, kain, ligo
9:30pm - sound trip hanggang makatulog
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kobe bryant and my wrong impression

i don't like kobe bryant. he thinks he can win a game by scoring heavily. he even scored 81 points at one time. what does it tell me? he takes a lot of shot and he's not sharing the ball. i play basketball myself and i play the pointguard position. i know the importance of sharing and distributing the ball. it helps a lot in making a better shot selection that leads to better field goal percentage and that will lead to better chances of winning.

this week (i don't know the exact day), kobe visited the country. it is his second visit but he visited for the same reason as before. that is to endorse the sports wear that he wear. i wasn't excited about it after all i don't like him. but that didn't stop me from reading articles about his visit. i learned a lot. and really, i had the wrong impression about him. it doesn't mean though that i like him now. no, that's not it. it's just that my negative impression of him diminished.

one writer said that on his first visit, kobe had a long day and was very tired. and there is this little girl named kathryn, who was a basketball varsity for la salle zobel, who wanted to have a picture of her taken with kobe. kobe was about to walk out of the venue (i forgot whether it's cuneta astrodome or araneta coliseum) when he learned about kathryn and her desire. kobe stopped then turned around, took photos with kathryn, chatted a while, and eat some bite. i was touched by the story. i thought that he had a giant ego thinking of how he plays on the hardcourt and considering that he was just 19 at that time. the writer also said that it is the kobe he wants to remember. reading further, i learned that he especially included in his itenerary a time with students of a certain school. he didn't changed in that light. he had a soft spot for children. that's what i like about him. and i liked him just now.

kathryn, if my memory serves me right, is one the unfortunate children who were included in a roller coaster accident in alabang town center. she lost her left arm. that little girl also touched my heart a lot because even though she lost her arm, and her basketball career too, she didn't take it negatively. in fact, i read somewhere before that she even joked that she wore a swatch watch at the time of accident but when she saw her arm, it was gone. look at how tough she can get. i sure hope she is doing well right now.